With finals to get ready for, this has never been more true...

I am in a really weird mood right now, I just watched a very thought-provoking movie last night, and I thought I would try and be thought-provoking myself. I decided that i should be a poet, so I cranked a few out this morning. Yes, I know that the majority either won't make any sense, or they will be intensely un-gratifying. Either way, I don't care. This is for me. (mostly, its kind of for everyone too though, otherwise I would put it all online)

How many times  must it be done over to get the same feeling as before? I am in a deathly, endless torment, unrelenting in its quest to enfold me in the ghosts of my past. It isn't good to revert back to my old self, but its all that I know.

The danger of having a good life is that you never have the chance to know your true self... The part of you that only comes out at the brink of existence. You can truly know someone by how they act in their last moments.Your inner self is all that should matter to you, so why not bring it out?

Release me from my snare! I do not want this life anymore! I don't deserve this pain and anguish, nobody does. How can I get another life? I can't. It's just not a possibility. I say to myself, "I want to be like those happy people over there." I won't, and can't find any solace in that prospect, because they are saying the exact same thing about me.

You can't always get what you want. What you want isn't always the best thing for you. What you need is arbitrary compared to a necessity. The necessities you can live without determine who you are as a person. Few people find out who they really are. It's too bad we try so hard to get what we want...

Why is it so important to be important? Importance is only important for importance sake. Why should I be important? How do I know if I am important? Does self-importance even matter? Do I have to be important  to myself in order to be important to someone else? Or do I first have to be important to someone else in order to be important with my self?

A storm is coming. A storm that will swallow the children, and I will deliver them from the kingdom of pain. I will deliver the children back to their doorsteps; I'll send the monsters back to the underground. I'll send them back to a place where no one else can see them.

Being better can only go so far. If you were always better, then you would eventually become perfect without the ability to be better. Is it then possible to be the best? "There is always someone better than you." This statement is forever and true to life. Therefore, nobody can ever be the best. So why do we try to achieve that which is un-achievable? We see those that are better, and wish to reach that level of 'being better'. Too bad there's somebody better.

The most motivational thing a person can do for others is to be self-motivated.

Cellar Door

As the school year comes to a close, I have feelings of regret, sadness, and hope. Regret, because of how much social activity I truly missed this semester. Sadness, because there's a high chance that I may not ever see or interact with some of my friends ever again. Finally hope, because despite the fact that I'm leaving for 2 years, everyone else will be carrying on with their lives. I have hope that some people will straighten their lives out, some will find true happiness, and a very precious few will stay in contact with me. ;)

“He who joyfully marches to music in rank and file has already earned my contempt. He has been given a large brain by mistake, since for him the spinal cord would surely suffice.” 

- Albert Einstein

"The impossibility of knowledge, even in regard to our own ignorance or doubt, should induce the wise person to withdraw into themselves, avoiding the stress and emotion which belong to the contest of vain imaginings." -Pyrrho

This my excuse for being an introverted genius ;)